It has been such a long time since I've touched a typewriter. Strange tothink that I used to work on a typewriter. I worked on a typewriter backin the day when I moved down here and started hanging out in Thomkins Square park. Boy those days were fun. This typewriter and this park are making  me feel sentimental about my youth and grateful that I had such a great youth. And grateful that I'm having such a great older adult life too. lost .. or refounded. having a break of what? am i looking for something i never will get? suddenli huge turns to narrow. there s no more space in my head but my heart empty..how can i transfer the void. shift. lift. who

is going to invent an elevator that goes from head to haert and back to head. i am waiting 

 Xander Rayne

july july july july july 2015we took in some theater grabbed an ice cream and found a bench it was a monday evening, peculiar evening for a first date

i felt like a teenager again when he made the move... what am i doing

kissing, giggling, staring at an almoost full moon

the pressure  of new york evaporated, if only for a few moments, 

fyi this was not a  date spawned from a dating app.

it was fully analog, as analog as the typwritter beneath my fingertips

July 5thThere is something intimidating about writing this...knowing it will be stored in the open door digital holding room of the intternet... even tho i do this all the time. there is something different in having to put weight into the keys...We watched the fireworks last night- everyone was there  looking through their screens. I hated it. Somehow it has become about re- cording every moment rather than actually experienccing it. I wish I was a hacker. I would create a bug that would open in everyone,s camera app- if you looked through the screen for longer than a minute the glitch would pop up a message that simply said "put down your phone and start experiencing  your life." that is all.