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itsabeautifuldaytodayimsittinginthisparktakingineveything.kidsplaying hearingthesoundofmusicplayinginthebackground.itspeaceful. ihonestlycannontremeberthelasttimeisat downandtakinginever workandschollhastakingover ,mylife. lifehasafunnywayofhitting youwiththeunexpected somanyemotions somanyemtotionsonedayhappyonedaysad. iamthehappiestihaveever beeninalongtime.thescarythingallthehapinesscancomeandgo ioftenwonderwhypainisapartoflife. whycanthappinessjusttakeoverourlives.

whydoespainhastobeinvolved

whymustwehavetofeelhurt

ijustwanttobesurroundedbyhappiness

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allneedsomeoneweallwanttobeheard

andtofeelunderstand

To all the boys I've ever loved beforeI think I've lost count of all one of you. It is easy to lose repressed memories Just as easy as it was to lose myself in you Or the way you lost yourself in me I think we forget virginities come once in a blue moon    I came three times   Or perhaps I lost count. Love,

 Poe-it Now back to these confessions. They are like young boys playing soccer

 with father figures you've never known but always wished you have.

 It is easy to go looking for prizes in boxes of generic brand cereals.

Momma always told you you never needed the real thing. Soo you grew up

 only knowing love like generic brand cereals and Saturday morning cartoons.

And, at 23 years old, I think I've finally become okay with that. ^Tammy Poe^it Lopez     

7/9/15I find it refreshing to leave ,my sins here, it is why I will probably

 not be going to confession this week. This typewriter like holy black

screen that separates me from the father. I saved hundreds on therapy

sessions by switching to the typewriter for the day. I don't need to

sit face to face with my doodling other half. Here is where I will leave

some sins, some rants, some poorly kept secrets and myself. Just wait, for 

there is a little girl that is my childhood waiting for me to finish.

T. Poe_it Lopez

listenlisten

santa is for 

children

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Love is for young

youthfuls

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Good is for grown ups

once young grown old

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delusions are keys to enduring 

this eternity

.........

Yet here we are.

pushing along coco brown ismyfriend and she likes the LES. 

llcoollinc

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Interrupted; sorry, excuse the break

Just like my life, this instant makes no different..

Half thoughts, scatterbrained

And now spaces / mistakes shown in ink.

...Relative//3333

D.k.a.d

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I loved and i,ve lost. Not only my self but my world was gone.I know this boyyp, his name is Lucas, he loves me,but i dont love him the same

way. His wyes tell a story ive never known, his mind is a whole new world A whole new challange. Hes now my boyfriend, hes my world, but i dont know

what i am to him. he doesnt love me the same way. he smokes, abuses drugs

and ruins his body. but i cant help but to feel drawn to him, i just want

to love him and take care of him. i want to devote my life to him and be with

him forever, but honestly, how long can we keep this up for? eventually ,

ill lose him as well// although he does terrible things to himself i know

he still cares for me and loves me like no otther. thanks for everything my love my love

i i thought quite often about lifes idiosinceracies. things see,mingly happen for know reason. ive always been the complicated person, much more

so now that i have gotten older. amongst all the bad and misfortunate i 

still believe in love. its the one things that despite everything else i will 

never doubt. whether il. ll be ready for it again will be a test of my character.

until that day comes i will continue tto believe what a lot would assume 

is ridiculous. i believe in love, i always will. this is my one truth.  

 stay happy, be hoepful, and love as much as possible.   

thee waythe way that you addressed me way demeaning, and not kind, and you havethe right to voice all the issues you want, and in fact i want you to so i can correct them , but i want to be spoken to with respect. not to send

angry texts and talk down to me. i dont deserve to come home to that.

in the long run, things will be much ,more peaseful -peaceful if we all 

treat each other at least cordially, and i didnt even get that treatment

yesterday, and if nothing else, thats at least how i expect to be treated.

this isnt about "TElling you how to react to things" as you said this 

morning. this is me telling you that i want and deserve respect, and will

not settle for verbal abuse.